Thank you so much :')

My dearest friend, Wen Le. Since you wrote in Chinese. I'll reply you in English, just to be even. 

Your birthday wish was the longest I'd received for this year. Actually, I only received some short and simply wishes. Of course, I cherish yours the most. It almost made me shed but I was laughing the whole time. Thanks for cheering me up because I have one paper tomorrow and I still haven't study finish and I'm still watching Uncontrollably Fond. Even though we don't chat much already, but from the bottom of our hearts, we still know that the memories we made together will always bring us back. I will never forget the moments when we sat at the back of the class, we laughed like siao zha boh umpteen times and everybody stared at us even the teachers. I remembered one time I laughed until the floor. I never regretted having all these moments with you, it was one of the best moments I ever had in my entire life. Thank you for appearing in my life, it was the greatest decision that I chose you as my best friend. 

I've graduated.

Today was our school graduation day
A 55 minutes convocation
The speeches and videos didn't trigger my tear gland
After the ceremony ended it was the time to say farewell to the teachers
I didn't intend to cry until the Principal hugged me
My tear gland was warming up that time
Then I hugged my Physics teacher, Puan Ng Eng Lan
A very sad feeling that I cannot expressed it at all
Then I hugged my Maths/ Add Maths teacher, Puan Loh Chee Wei
She was crying, shock dao me
The tears covered my eye balls
I knew I'm going to cry anytime now
Next I hugged my Biology teacher, Puan Tan Kate Neo
I was so sad when I see her because I didn't perform well in Biology
She said:" Zoe, good luck in your SPM ah."
Shit
I burst into tears
Tears of regret
I was so disappointed in myself that I didn't do better
Even though it was hard for me I should had done better

I took a selfie with her

We took a picture with her

We also took a picture with our Chemistry teacher

I didn't take much pictures

I was crying and I was trying to control myself

SO hard

I saw Ah Gwen crying and hugging everyone

I avoided her because I knew I will cry harder than her

Just by looking at her

I also felt like crying

I turned away immediately

I also didn't hug a lot people

Because I knew if I hug them I will never let them go

It will be a long hug

Then I saw my junior

I met her in the year 2011 when I learnt Taekwondo

We were buddies we talked a lot

We told each other everything 

Then one day something bad happened

We didn't talk much since then

We talked to each other starting this year

But we didn't talk much

She was in the crowd

That time I was still crying, just crying

I saw her standing there

Then I walked forward and hugged her tightly

I cried even louder and harder

Because I was not a good senior to her

I should had done better

That was the longest hug of the day

She was just standing right next to me. Third one from left.

The only picture after graduation

我们都是相信真爱的孩纸们

We promised we won't cry

But you know we are awful liars

We just like to lie throughout our whole life

Tears of joy or what?

I don't know

Only the ones who cry knows it

Will this be the end?

I don't know

We will make our own decision

What can I say now?

Nothing

Welcome to Malaysia Mr. President

Am I?

I'm leaving somewhere far faraway
And I'm never coming back
To this place I once call home
I'm not in reality now
I'm still leaving in my dream world
Where you and I are watching the sunset
This world is too cruel that I can't even breathe
Everything isn't fairy tale in reality
I remember once
That confession that I will never forget
I'm not sure there is any hint
But I'm definitely sure it's not going to happen again
I'm messing up with my feelings
Stupid
If I have a time machine
I would travel back in time
Go back to that time when I was so scare about it
I will be brave
I will never hold back
I will definitely be there
It will never come true
Unless time didn't change anything
I hope so
What if you're waiting?
What if I am right?
What if I'm not in my dream land?
Will that happen in reality?
One day I will ask
About everything

0811

Because of our country.

We betrayed our country.

This is familiar

This feeling is familiar

ALONE

This really suck

There's no point crying

I'm still a little girl
This suck
You are the only thing I can't get
Why
Tell me
If every human being in this planet is brave enough to confess
There won't be any singles
Cowards
Maybe this country only
I don't know
Ah
I can't always live in dream world rite?
I'm going to wait
Until I rot
Lets see how

There's a reason for everything
It depends on you whether you believe it or not
Not me
If you can't trust it
Forget about it
Let go
The door is always open for you
Feel free to go
If you choose this road
Don't blame
Believe it
You are the one who chose it
Not me
Remember
YOU

3006

I'm a human
I have feelings
I can feel it
It's very pain
I'm not heartless
I know how bad it hurts
I have a heart
I don't want anybody to get hurt
What's wrong when I have sympathy for them?
I'm not suit to be a referee
Because I'm not a heartless person
I'm not going to endure
This is not me

I'm not a human
I don't have feelings
I can't feel it
It's not pain at all
I'm heartless
I don't know how it hurts
I don't have a heart
I wan't everybody to get hurt
What's wrong when I don't have any sympathy for them?
I'm suit to be a referee
Because I'm a heartless person
I'm going to endure
This is me

You are the one who did this to me
Remember
You teach me to be heartless
Next time when I see you in pain
I will say
" I'm not a human, I have no heart, you're very unlucky today, because I have no feelings, you're the one who did this to me, I'm a referee, I must be heartless, this is my job."
I will break every one of your bones in your body
Because I have no feelings
I must not have feelings
I'm heartless
You die
So what?

2906

From today onward
I won't blame anybody anymore
Even if they did something wrong
They got their reasons just like me
I won't scold anybody anymore
I will shut my mouth from today onward
I will mind my own business
It has nothing to do with me
When somebody did something wrong
Maybe is not the person I'm scolding did it
Maybe is other people
I don't know
Only they know
Because I was the one being scolded
Even though I did nothing wrong

The Truth

D: Hey, my cousin said that during Mooncake festival we go there and celebrate. He is bringing his gf. So I bring her, you bring him.
M: Him? You really mean "him"?
D: Yup.
M: But I don't dare to ask. How?
D: Me too... How about I ask him for you and you ask her for me?
M: Okay. Sounds good.
D: You can go?
M: Can. I think...

M: Hey. During Mooncake festival you free? Me, you, K, D and D's cousin and his gf going. Wanna go?
S: Erm... I don't think I can...
M: Why?
S: Don't want...
M: I'm going. Don't be afraid...
S: Nah...
M: Okay. I'll tell him...

M: Hey D. You ask K already?
D: Not yet... You ask S already?
M: Asked. She said she don't want.
D: Why she don't want? Say you're going.
M: I already said that, no use.
D: ...
M: Ask another girl... Who is the second one?
D: ...
M: Who? Ask the second one.
D: Don't want.
M: Why? Nothing wrong what...
D: Ah...
M: Who is she? Tell me. I ask her. Maybe she can go.
D: Ya. She already said she can go...
M: Me?!
D: ...
M: I'm the second one?!

2706

Thank you for everything.
I appreciate it a lot :D

It was not the first time.

Give it to me

You see I don’t usually do this but
I really need you tonight

Give it to me give it to me
Give it to me give it to me
Give it to me give it to me

Will I even get married before I turn thirty?
My heart is hurt from only giving love, what do I do?

My heart hurts even at the persistent sound of rain
I’m still young and soft-hearted
Innocent and soft-hearted, I have a lot of tears

No matter how much I want and beg
There’s only your empty spot, filled with tears
I want you to give me love
That’s all I need
Oh baby give it to me

Will you come before the morning comes?
I only look at you like a fool

I cry, I cry all day till morning comes
I don’t know if that’s the sun or moon, I don’t know if it’s day or night
Oh baby give it to me I’m sorry that’s all I need
Oh baby give it to me, oh baby give it to me

No matter how much I want and beg
There’s only your empty spot, filled with tears
I want you to give me love
That’s all I need
Oh baby give it to me

I write and tear up this letter tens and hundreds of times
Why is love only so heavy to me?
I cry, I cry all day till morning comes
I don’t know if that’s the sun or moon, I don’t know if it’s day or night

I cry all day till morning comes
Give it to me Give it to me
I cry all day till morning comes, Give it to me

Give it to me oh baby give it to me
Give it to me oh baby give it to me
I want you to give me love
That’s all I need
Oh baby give it to me

Haze

Haze...
Make everybody so damn tired...
Headache...
Ah...
Pray hard tomorrow morning no more haze
I need fresh air
So bad

21062013

Thanks for the memories :D